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nagpapakapuwet / Wednesday, March 29, 2006

the unthinkable happened
so stupid, so dumb of me
tears
it got us both hurt
on his part the most
why?
what made me do this?
angst. selfishness. unsensitivity.
nothing could make him ever more disappointed
and hurt. hurt so badly
and felt betrayed
by someone whom he loves most.
unexpected. lies. truths. hurts.
is this love?
forgiveness is.

i found this in my drawer while i was cleaning up my room... cheesy, aint it? i know i know..writing poems are definitely not for me! :P

its so friggin hot!!!! i'm sweating like a pig.. but pigs don't sweat! so hey! i'm not making any sense! hahaha! is this cuased by the summer heat?! i wonder how my dog's taking it? i constantly give an ice cube to keep him cool and he constantly keeps on drooling on the floor.. yuck! but i love him anyway! hehehe!

this is cute, lovable and adorable hutch when we first got him.. he still fits in a laundry basket then..

now he's bigger than the kids next door.. gwapo noh? :D

ciao! gotta get some chow! :P laterz..

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11:52 AM

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T / Tuesday, March 28, 2006

tiring
tuesday
tidy up
tons of
trash

yeah terrible Ts ain't it? that's how i'm gonna summarize my day.. we cleaned the house today and transferred most of my things into my *new office*! we're tryna get organized and make space.. we did a pretty good job at doing that, trashing all the junk in the garbage bin, sweeping, mopping, all those stuff.. but now my legs are sore from walking around the house, trying to transfer my plates and school stuff from my oh-so-messy room to the new and spacious office!

isn't it friggin hot today?!? my mom thought she was just having hot flashes (?spell check?), but really, the temp's gone way high! heck i was sweating the whole day.. eww.. anyway i just took a shower a few moments ago and now i feel a whole lot fresher and cleaner..

*beauty tip from tita belle: after cleansing your face, before going to sleep: massage an ice cube all around your face. this will close the pores on your skin. plus it feels nice and cool too! hehe!

good morning news that started my day: he called!! finally, after 42+ hours of waiting.. i so glad he still forgave me after all that shit i said.. am really so lucky to have him! he also showed me his pictures a while ago, ang gwapo nya talaga!! hehe! kilig.. :P haha! malandi!

gawd i've got an LSS on Beep! hahahaha! it keeps on playing in my mind like a pirated cd, repeating and repeating just a fraction of the song! demmit..

hayy im getting bored and sleepy.. i've got no one to talk to at the moment.. hehehe loner! anyweiz, i gotta end this now, its getting really lame..

ciao for now!

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11:06 PM

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bored to death / Monday, March 27, 2006

i knew the day had nothing exciting in store for me so i decided to clean up the clutter in my room.. i fixed all the paper and piled them up neatly, i segregated my things in two categories: garbage and not garbage. haha! i realized i had a lot of scraps and trash inside my bags and paperbags and plastic bags and drawers! in short, i had a lotta junk! hehehe! so there, i threw em all garbage in the bin.. i also organized my bags and my school stuff.. then i collected all the scissors i found in my room which all in all totalled to SIX scissors! gawsh.. i distributed the scissors around the house cause i didn't wanna get suicidal..haha kidding! i also came across my previous artworks back last summer when i joined a certain art workshop.. me show u! me show u! :P

still life flowers in vase; done in 6B pencil

half portraiture; also done in 6B pencil; half of it actually came from a magazine

i'm also going to you show some of my works from our visual arts class last year. i'm not bragging..i'm just showing! bwahahaha!! no wait! im ARCHIVING.. yeaah that's a better way of putting it.. hehehe

fruits in bowl; oil pastel on artist paper

sneakers; 6B Pencil

tree sculpture; clay

horrific isn't it?

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3:49 PM

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blah blah / Sunday, March 26, 2006

i'm still waiting for his call or even just his text.. i haven't heard anything from him the whole day.. *sigh!* wonder what he's doing..?

i've been soo lazy the whole day! i feel like a fat old hamster that hardly ever moves.. geez! summer sucks when you've got nothing to do and nowhere to go.. and the friggin summer heat makes me want to stay in the shower the whole day!

i've got a day left before our outing to morong, bataan and i've still got nuthin to wear! i dont intend to wear my swimsuit..AGAIN. i need a new one.. i think i want a tankini.. i just HAVE to go to the mall tomorrow!

the santos clan is having a family outing too.. sa morong, bataan din!! grabe! di naman masyadong nakakasawa yun noh? after 2 days i'll be back in the same place.. shoot! i need a super effective sun block with at least spf 45! good luck naman sa kulay ko.. haha!

i just can't wait to get out! i don't like to stay in my room anymore, staying in it alone just floods my eyes with tears.. now that he won't talk to me.. waa! see what you've done diana?! bad cheetah..

oh i haven't told you about my drafting room yet.. we're gettin it fixed, putting shelves and all.. its almost done actually! the carpenters just need to finish the wood with bleach.. i like the desk and shelving to have a birch effect; the color's light and it matches the room (which by the way has a yellow theme..hehe!) i sad i can't show you a picture of it since my camera's busted and i ain't got no money to replace it with a new one! tsk tsk..

tito alex, a neighbor, lent me a couple of IKEA magazines.. for those of you who're wondrin what IKEA is, its actually a design firm, originally scandinavian, wherein they sell neat-o furniture, furnishings, interiors, etc ..anything for home improvement! they've got stores in cananda and i think that's where the mag came from.. he lent me copies of the 2000 and 2006 issue and i saw how drastic changes were from the year 2000 up to 2006.. presently, funitures are much more minimalist and "high tech" of course.. and ive noticed the colors used for the interior design look cooler to eyes, lines are cleaner and most of the stuff there are really organized.. its just so nice browsing that magazine..it makes me want to design my own space! of course that comes with the right resources.

am i talking nonsense already? bahh, who cares.. still blogging.. :)

waa i'm getting super depressed right now, every chance i get to be alone in my room, i cry! demmit! why does this have to happen..? i have got to get him off my mind!! asa pa kasi ako daba?! heller?! hahahaha!! shit.. i might turn into the next sisa! diana! get a hold of yourself!!

wala na akong ma-say.. baka magsenti lang ako dito and i don't want to destroy my blog with my overrated dramas and shitty sickly love thoughts! stopping this right now...

laterz..

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10:59 PM

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i'm really not i good mood right now.. but what the heck.. blog away diana!

i was lookin at my ym a while ago and saw cabutz' stat. he posted his blog site so clicked on it to see what's in his blog. i envy his background!! it was so nice.. then i read some of the things he wrote, and boy oh boy i'm sure you'll get a nosebleed coz of his profound thoughts! ever since talaga he's like that, he's so deep and very much intelligent. anyhu, while checkin out his blog, i saw links to blogs of other people. i clicked on nash's blog and in it i came across many other blogs of my csa friends. i clicked on hazel's.. ala lng i was just browsing and getting ideas for my blog.. para naman mabuhay un blog ko daba?! how do they add all those special effects chuva?! hehehe.. i need a tutor..!

hay.. me and marc are not in good terms right now, that's why i feel so down.. i said something to him which made him mad..gee diana how tactless of you! hayy.. i wish i could rewind time.. now he won't talk to me.. what am i to do?!?! huhu... blog.

what else to write about? hmm.. can't think of any anymore.. i just have this guilty feeling inside me now.. don't cry diana bad yun..

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1:14 PM

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ugh.. / Friday, March 24, 2006

mom's gone to tagaytay... so the four of us are left here at home and unfortunately we can't cook anything so we hadto go dine out somewhere...we ate at zong's at the fort strip and demmit its a friday so we can't order anything with pork or beef in it! i was craving for tofu and so i ordered.. the thing is it was spicy pala! pero i love spicy naman so ok lng at first.. pero i think i ate too much of it that's why i got this head ache! and tummy ache pala! grabe busog talaga ako, kahit na puro veggies at noodles lng knain ko! haha! ay squid pa pala! ngyon lng ulit ako nabusog ng ganto.. i don't eat heavily sa dinner nowadays eh.. as much as possible i avoid eating rice pag dinner.. haha nagpapapayat! i feel as if im adding pounds everyday..huhuh kaya i resolved to eating less pag dinner..

hayy i'm beginning to feel sleepy and groggy.. i gotta get some shut eye.. adios!

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11:43 PM

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wow! i can't believe i survived the first year of college! tapos na! ..then again, i still have 3 left... waa! pero its all good kasi i get to go on vacation na! yay!!

here are my plans for this summer:

learn how ta drive and get a friggin license!
plan summer activities in the community. youth club revival..
go someplace i've never been to, like hmm? amanpulo?!? asa!! hahaha dream on diana...
blog, blog, blog and fill up my blog
join the UP art workshop! grabe i wanna do this! although malayo nga lng from my place..
pero i want to try the talent test for next year eh...
try swimming lessons? ooh...in Rockwell's purdy pool.. :p
earn some money i suppose..saan?! ewan!
malling, gimik with friends..kung may pera.. :P
and..when i finally learn how to drive and borrow the car, i'm going to pay someone a visit! hehehe ;)

onga, i hope i can drive na so i can go to caloocan by myself.. and finally be with marc even for just a couple of hours! :) tpos papastudio pic na din ako sa kanya.. hahaha! :p

for those nga pala interested in joining this year's UP Summer Art Workshop in Diliman, email me or make a comment and i'll send you a copy of the registration form. the workshop's worth 4K by the way and it'll last for three weeks i think..oh and its starting this april (3 i think..) anyweiz, i really don't know much of the details of this workshop.. my friend, Larrie just told me about it and gave me the form.. guess you'd better check UP's site for more info..

what else d'ya think i should do this summer?

ay teka! gets mo ba title neto? hehehe..

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6:52 PM

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hay.. / Thursday, March 23, 2006

i dont feel like talking, rather typing much today.. i'm super frustrated with our finals plate.. hayy.. our design was good! it was even great! pero walang grade... nakakasad.. :( hay.. i just really can't accept the fact na pinaghirapan yun tpos wala ring grade.. hay nko tlga.. i hate her! i hate her sooo damn much! why does she always have to be a biyatch in my life and in everyone else's?! grrr... hayy.. guess its just like that.. para matuto kame?? hayy... that just sucks..

buti nlng i have marco to comfort me whenever i feel really really down.. *thanks baybeh! mwah! hehe! he manages to make my feelings much much lighter even if i'm already crying my heart out..

hayy.. whatever ma'am mendoza..

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6:22 PM

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shit!! we're not done with our finals plate yet! waaa! and its freakin due tomorrow! hayy...

i just got home from school.. gawsh i'm so so sooo tired and sleepy! grabe i'm telling you, nakakapagod ang course na to! the school's freakin far from where i live... i really and i mean REALLY can't wait till all these stuff's over! only 2 more days to go and presto! vacation mode!

my classmate, rochelle, is planning an outing to a beach in Bataan so we can bond before we part ways.. *sob!* ang daming magshishift ng course samin kasi ang hirap talaga.. nako..ilan nlng kaya kaming matitira sa class?? take note, we're hmm, what, 45? in a class and only 10 of us are girls.. if they all decide to shift sino pang matitirang babae?! only me and eachay are positively sure in staying to become industrial designers.. hala! baka maging lalaki na kame nyan?! nako good luck!

pero kahit na hirap na hirap na kame, i won't give this course up.. in the first place, wala na akong resources, in terms of financial and time, para magshift pa! secondly, the course is uber great, kasi i think it'll promise a great future for me pero super hirap nga lng.. especially the most dreaded GRAPHICS subject! i really hope i can make it through.. it's what i've been praying for since i started getting line of 7s in my plates.. sheesh! oh God hear me!!! Buñi be kind to me!!!

anyhu.. i need to get me some shut eye kahit sandali.. good night people of the world!

kaloka! :P

*** this was supposed to be for yesterday but my stupid internet connection won't let me post! so there.. :P

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6:14 PM

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toothpick please..! / Wednesday, March 22, 2006

gawd, i'm super duper uber sleepy.. and i ain't done studying yet! my eyelids are just shutting by themselves.. shiyet.. i've been munching on flat tops and drinking h20 to keep me awake..still no use! read read read r e a d zzzz... wake up! i've still got one more handout to go.. ugh..history of design..too long.. must sleep..zzzz....

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4:35 AM

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little miss cinderella! / Tuesday, March 21, 2006

TODAY, i just happend to have a really embarassing moment in the colorum i usually ride on when going home.. i almost passed by tenement (that's where i'm s'posed to get off the colorum) coz i fell asleep in the van! buti nlng naalipungatan ako, kung hindi lalagpas talaga ako! haha! to make things worse, i was seated at the very back row of the van and when i was getting off as i raised my right leg up to get over the extra folding seat in the middle row, nkita ko un foot ko na wala nang sapatos! naiwan ko un shoe ko sa likod! buti nlng the girl seated next to me was nice enough to give me my shoe back.. :) others naman were giggling! funny talaga! hehehe!

lesson learned: next year, i might be buying my footsies a pair of mary janes or anything with straps on it! :P

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6:18 PM

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oh shit.. the moment has come! finals na! and pretty soon i'll be in 2nd yr.. hay, ang bilis!

yes i know its almost 4am and i'm still awake! i've just finished re-typing and reading my notes..ang dami dami kasi eh! don't you just hate minor subjects na masyadong pa-importante?? just like my exam later: PA.. kulang nalang idiscuss nya yung buong history ng Philippines! hay.. anyweiz, we really can't do away with professors like that..hell..

i know its going to be a hell for me this week but on the plus side, i actually had a good Monday.. tests were quite easy and i went home early.. nako, sana same din for the rest of the week! waaa!

well..i better fix my things, i've only got an hour and a half to shut my lids! after this week, wahoo sleep galore! summer! bum mode! hahahaha... :)

..man, i really need to get away from stress!

ciao! ;)

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3:39 AM

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/ Sunday, March 19, 2006

just got home from a great night out with mah friends! Bispren, JP, Geoff, ER, Monch, Nico, TJ u guys are the best! and to Monch, who's gonna leave on wednesday, hope u have a safe trip!
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/ Saturday, March 18, 2006

the greatest painting i've ever done..
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hooray! bangs for me!
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2:56 PM

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haha! sa wakas may blog na rin ako!! i hope i can continue this and hopefully this could help me improve my writing and compostion thang.. ayun.. i guess the first thing i should do is design and spice up my blog! para masaya.. :P hehe!

ciao for now!

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1:11 PM

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